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Nov. 30th, 2011
Reflections at 27
I have never been one to care about my age. Getting older doesn't scare me. Maybe this is because I am still relatively young. Maybe it's because I consider myself an old soul. Whatever it be, turning 27 didn't really seem like all that big of deal to me. It's not some sort of banner year. 27, it's not 21, not 30. Not a big deal. Right?
So how come on the eve of my 27th birthday, I felt myself clinging to the idea of staying 26? I feel so sill for admitting I didn't want to get older. I wanted to stay 26 for as long as i could. So I looked back over my previous 26 years of life to see what it was that I was holding on to. I've lived quite a bit over my 27 years. At least in regards to having a career at young age. I don't lead a very scandalous life, but I've had my adventures. I've worked with some of my heros-- Quentin Tarantino, Edgar Wright. I've loved and loss-- probably the most "scandalous" thing about me is a broken engagement, but that's another story for another day.
So what is missing? Honestly nothing. I have always made sure I was content in my life without settling for something just because it was comfortable [i.e. aforementioned engagement]. In fact as I sit here typing this, I just received word that the film I just finished, "Smashed," has been officially selected for Sundance. I’ve spent years just wanting to do something like this--years of wanting to do something small and performance-focused, and everybody saying, ‘You’re not a financial name. We need somebody who’s a financial name.’ And then finally realizing that that’s not always true. You just have to go out there and find the people that are willing to make movies just for the sake of making good movies. You have to get out there and do it.
So why was I so concerned about turning 27? The answer is simple. I was silly. I was scared. I realized I am just as concerned with my own vanity as the next person, I was just too stubborn to admit it.
Besides, I must say 27 has started off pretty great. I had the perfect birthday date and now I am going to Sundance. No complaints here.
So how come on the eve of my 27th birthday, I felt myself clinging to the idea of staying 26? I feel so sill for admitting I didn't want to get older. I wanted to stay 26 for as long as i could. So I looked back over my previous 26 years of life to see what it was that I was holding on to. I've lived quite a bit over my 27 years. At least in regards to having a career at young age. I don't lead a very scandalous life, but I've had my adventures. I've worked with some of my heros-- Quentin Tarantino, Edgar Wright. I've loved and loss-- probably the most "scandalous" thing about me is a broken engagement, but that's another story for another day.
So what is missing? Honestly nothing. I have always made sure I was content in my life without settling for something just because it was comfortable [i.e. aforementioned engagement]. In fact as I sit here typing this, I just received word that the film I just finished, "Smashed," has been officially selected for Sundance. I’ve spent years just wanting to do something like this--years of wanting to do something small and performance-focused, and everybody saying, ‘You’re not a financial name. We need somebody who’s a financial name.’ And then finally realizing that that’s not always true. You just have to go out there and find the people that are willing to make movies just for the sake of making good movies. You have to get out there and do it.
So why was I so concerned about turning 27? The answer is simple. I was silly. I was scared. I realized I am just as concerned with my own vanity as the next person, I was just too stubborn to admit it.
Besides, I must say 27 has started off pretty great. I had the perfect birthday date and now I am going to Sundance. No complaints here.
May. 20th, 2011
Ooooh LA, I am gonna ride all over you!